I have been out of work since February 2010 and actively looking for work but I haven’t had much luck. My house is in foreclosure and the utilities are being shut off one by one. I need help/advice.
I am a single parent of three kids well they aren’t kids anymore. I have a daughter who is 21 she’s a student nurse in college to obtain her RN, I have a son he’s 20 he is an electrician and starts his last year of apprenticeship and my youngest son who is 18 he is a welder and fantastic baseball player, he graduated high school this year and a college picked him up and he got a 2 year scholarship for his pitching abilities for baseball. All three of them are great people they have their own vehicles, pay their own car insurance, car payments, cell phone bills, personal needs and their own food and still manage to try to help me the best they can. They even pay for their own school things and medical expenses.
I was with a man for 16 years we never married. We had decided for me to by the house which was my grandparent’s and they had bought it the month and year I was born. A year after I bought the house I lost my job and he walked out on me. When he left I was devastated, I wasn’t expecting it at all what so ever. The money I wish I had today that I paid in tolls to drive on top of the bridge near my house and just jump I would have a lot of money.
Actually a year ago I had a nervous breakdown and my daughter had me admitted into a mental hospital actually that was two years ago. They wouldn’t release me unless she signed me out or the doctor released me. I called her crying I just remember her words exactly “Mom you need help enough because we need our mom back” I knew she was right so I stayed it ended up being seven days. There I was diagnosed with Bipolar I and a Manic Depressant I am medicated but I feel I am alone and I will never be normal! I don’t have friends because I just can’t handle drama and my family isn’t much support with this condition they don’t know how to handle me nor do they try. I haven’t done much right in my life but with these three I have.
I have a hard time trusting people! I always try to help others and make others happy instead of myself! I put everyone else before me! In the end I always turn out to be the bad person! My self-esteem is low and I need to work more on me and the hell with helping others! I hate silence I cannot sit in a room with silence that just brings my worst enemy out who is my mind!
I do enjoy different types of music and reading. I find relaxation in crocheting, I find my laughter and to keep living life in my 3 precious kids. I do enjoy the beach, skiing and I love baseball!
The Philadelphia Phillies are my favorite team. My daughter and I coached a T-ball team this year for the first time and we had a blast it was so much fun we are doing next year and we didn’t even know any of the kids or the parent’s we did it to get me out of the house and to help my mind.
But I am here for any help or advice anyone can give me at all!
Thank you to all of you in advance for you advice and help!
Daneta
